don't bother calling me tonight David.

today was horrible.
it started out fine, went to the mall with Rita and Emily bought a bunch of stuff I don't really need.
then I left Rita's house, because she had to go to work and stuff
but I had really bad painful cramps ..so... I stoped at David's on my way because I couldn't drive any more soo I could chill for a little bit until they went away.
when I got there he was really nice to me because I felt sick.
but he wanted to go to the book store to get a book for english which was fine, I was feeling better so I wanted to go with him seeing as it is a saturday night... and I don't have to work which NEVER happens.
of course he didn't want me to go with him because he was going to David P.'s house afterwards.
...the only reason he ever hangs out with David is to smoke pot.

I tried compermising with him.. like how about you hang out with David (p) tomorrow because I have to work tomorrow so that way I don't have to sit at home by myself on a Saturday night
..that didn't work

so I lost my temper and started crying. I hate being ditched. I hate it. I hate it.
I hate being the one who's sitting at home while everyone is doing something.
I hate when my boy friend picks smoking pot over me.

I got in my car freaking balling my eyes out and left without saying good bye. He didn't even call me.

I got like a mile down the road and relized that I left my ten dollars in his kitchen, so I turned around ..when I got back which was a matter of like three minutes, he had already left.

I don't think my feelings have ever been hurt that bad in my life.

so now I'm sitting at my house with my family doing nothing.






I am so sick of this.
I love him so much, but it feels like he doesn't even care any more.
I fucking hate marajuana.

pettttter pan

my dinner today was an energy drink and fruit snacks.
I suck at dieting, my ass is going to be huge forever.

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so this weekend was Zoie's first birthday. it was neat because her mom my auntish (call her my aunt but actually just a really close family friend) went wayyy over the top with the theme which was Peter Pan and even dressed up as an indian or "Tiger Lilly".
it was really fun actually and Zoie and all her siblings and all the little kids there were freaking adorable. I went with David and the fam.
...






Laura "Tiger Lilly" and everyone waiting to get their Indian war paint


David covered in fairy dust


Zoie/ Tinker Bell and Me .. I love this picture shes all like wtf



comment this shit beeeeches

thank you sir.

so..
a few days ago at work this old guy came in and I'm talking ancient old.. well any ways I took his order and every thing made his food and blah then when I gave him his food he looked at me and said "thank you sir"
I stared at him kind of like awe struck expecting him to laugh and be like "oh sorry"
but no.
he just carried on like that's what he meant to say, so that kind of ruined my day.
Do I look like a man?





I don't have braces any more.
BAD
I can't play my saxophone well because I'm not used to playing without braces
I have to wear a freaking retainer
I look weird when I look at myself
I can't talk with the retainer
my teeth are really narrow
my mouth hurts really really bad

GOOD
I don't have braces any more
I don't have braces any more
my teeth are pretty white
I've been looking forward to this since 8th grade lmao
my teeth will stop hurting eventually
I only have to wear the retainer for two months
I'm supa fly

live simply so that others can simply live.

..that's my all time favorite quote.








I forgot this one.


its not the best picture ever but it has a lot of meaning.
(I wish the leaves were more in focus) (but I kind of like them blurry to) (I just don't know)




FOOOOTTTTTBBBAAAALLLL game (in like an hour and a half).
I hate sports, I love band.


well I take that back, I don't hate sports I hate the competitiveness of them why can't we just play for fun.

money roles cars an hoes

I am the biggest procrastinator I know.. I am supost to be writting an essay thats due tomorrow. but I haven't started.

on a lighter note I decided to take a bunch of pictures today, I was in a naturey animaly mood..
tell me what you think. even if you think they suck.

Chloe <3
this is my favorite, fattest, oldest cat. I love her more than I love a lot of things. it doesn't look like I have braces in this picture.
I am aware that I don't look good in this picture, but I wasn't going for a glam shot. I like it.
my mom doesn't like this one.


this is Shiloh.



Houdini, our cutest cat. shes kind of mean tho and was hissing at me during the production of this picc



arise chicken, chicken arise.

Aqua Teen Hunger Force number one in the hood G

cross county meet was hilarious. I am jealous of Rita, and sexy sexy sexyyy Jake taking his shirt off for her ROFL.
Emily is sooo funny. kudos kudos kudos (you had to be there).
I was supost to be Rita's good luck charm but I think I was her bad luck charm. Sorry girl. I love you. you're my bestie.

My sister is actually really good at it, I was expecting her to suck but nope nope nope.. she did good. killled Rita any way looll

The new generation of Ipods just cameee out, which is mega cool. I've been saving up my dough and I'll have enough for the touch on the seventeenth, which is coincidently the same day I get my braces off.
...so basicallyyy the best day of my life.

David I love you, I'm sorry.

my house is cold.

Talked to Kristen (Leland) via texting, today. It was nice to talk to her I miss her a lot shes one of the funniest people I know. I wish she didn't live so freaaaking far away. what a hoe.

Ashleigh needs to get her cookie dough out of my freezer anddd give me my money she owes me for it. what a hoe.

I was just informed by my television that Asian pussy is the best to eat. good to know gooood to know.

changed for the worse

Danielle says I've changed for the worse.
.. darn.
what does that even mean??
I've learned so much about myself thru her
1.) I'm stuck up
2.) I'm a bitch
3.) I've changed for the worse
4.) I only care about things when they're negative
5.) I can't read, (either that or I'm blind)
...6.) saying you're friends with someone doesn't mean shit

good thing she NEVER judged me.

Molly (if you read this)
you asked me "where's Dakota" in one of your comments.
I'm right here. I hate this. I'm not mad at you although you most likely agree with everything Danielle has said pertaining to me.. and if it means anything I'm sorry I ever wrote that letter. It was toooo harsh, I was just really upset that day and I took it out on you. That was wrong of me and I feel like poop about it.


---David I'm soosososo sososossooso sorry about everything today I love you so muchh you are my everything.--------


I ate like five cookies from subway today because I was depressed, food makes me feel better its weird. I think I have and eating disorder.
I'm going to be a monster when my metabolism slows down.

is it bad to wish death upon your first block teacher almost daily?


again David I love you.

stuck up bitch

ahem.

I went to pizza hut with David today and bought our food, get a job David.

went to work and was bored.
Heather's (girl I work with) sister brought us Chinese food and it was amazing.
that made me supa happy.
then this guy yelled at me because he thought that I rang his order up wrong, but I didn't he just doesn't know how to read..
it was not cool, I thought he was going to beat me up. I just kept trying to explain it to him and hes like no no no no there's no way these add up.
what an assss wipe.

Danielle and I are not friends any more.
I was called a stuck up bitch by her today, behind my back I might add..
maybe I am a stuck up bitch butttt I would at least like to be granted the decency of being called it to my face, not by telling it to my best friend. OF COURSE she's going to tell me.
I'm not losing sleep over this one.
I'm done.

iron and wine

fooottball game in like a half hour.
I'm indifferent I'm not really looking forward to it but, its something to do.
Our band isn't very good but we're really big so it makes us seem like we are.. its weird.

Iron and wine is a very good band to make out to.
..I found that out today.
I really like them.
David burn me that cd.
please.

David smokes too much pot, thats why he's failing language seriously.

I'm becoming fat. its not cute. How do you lose weight without starving yourself.
don't leave me comments saying "you're not fat blah blah" it will just annoy me not make me feel better.

my first bugger.

I wonder how many people will actually read this.
most likely about three.
..that's how many friends I have.

I used to have a lot of friends.

not any more.

this summer sucked.




um I don't think I'm very good at blogging it should be called buggering, its more appealing.